mood: patience is a virtue.
Burdens
Injured with pain and sadness,
The memories of you that cannot be healed
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased;
Don’t throw away your will to live

Your hand that I held..
Will we lose it someday?
I want to protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the wind along time

I will find you.
Don’t say words like you can’t smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there’ll come a time when you will realize

Like a rusted person

It felt so hollow to just pile atop one another
You said you could live on your own
Just with the usual kind words
You ache to a point where I cannot reach you

Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindness
Do you remember
By learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to others
Move forward with your life

How can I see the meaning of life
Disappearing, you’re the only love that i have now..

So you will not break, you distance yourself from me
Don’t say words like you can’t smile or you hate people
Now it’s by and by, even if you cannot see, there’s a meaning to everything
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased;
Don’t throw away your will to live

You’d better forget everything.
Remember your different life?
cause even if the memories is still alive though, we still cannot return and look back.

Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday..

19th March of 2008:
this will be a quick one as i don’t wanna relive the sadness and heartache i was when at cruise so yeah.
morning,
wake up around 7.
proceeded to school and many of us were late so yeah
performed and everything was smooth except the last part where.. i hit my guitar at ali’s head
(sorry!)
after performance, went to have lunch at a coffeeshop nearby.
went back school at around 12.30 and love was really aching me as she and her bestfriendsforever was real close.
i know i’m just not her real boyfriend but love is still there between us right.
so i still feel the jealousy like shit.
oh and at cruise i didn’t even ate anything as i lost all my appetite to the jealousy.
anyway,
after that love was real mean to me as for a long time, i never felt her warmth hug, and when i asked her for one, she’d just walked away.
but i’d just have been very patient with her.
i won’t give up.
well, anyway
last days had always been sad right?
and love still can’t forget about her ex-bf,
what should i do now?
i still believe that she can do her best but if she, herself don’t wanna forget.
then i think i’ve failed myself, even as a normal friend.

i still love you so much, siti saleha..