mood: fucked up
Bad Friends
Because throughout it all, I don’t want tranquillity
I’m full of scars,
But that’s fine, and I won’t cry!

People, after all, are all alone
Yet though seperated, we can be casual
During the late night rain, sneak out of bed
Listening to the distant footsteps

Until you embrace someone’s crimes,
What do you judge?
What can you judge!

My partners got injured, because of that,
It confirmed everything
You know, the distance between those hearts,
Are just like the rain and the sky

I’m irritated, surely because we’re different
You can just leave through the door, bluffing, more than anyone
So go away

What we’re seeking is the same
If we could speak of it, it’d be comfortable
At this dawn, taking out a pack of cigarettes
Lengthy sighs became cloudy

My bluffing back is trembling, but to where are you hurrying?

They are full of ego, filling up my anger
You know, things like words, dissatisfaction with our place in life,
Still exists and I can’t deny it

But those friends I won’t ever call them again..

Sunday of 13th January:
woke up around 12.04pm and online-d, bathed
i was acting different somehow i didn’t even notice it
i’m so sorry guys
anyway around 5
met farhaimi and i got to know all those things
so this post is another venting-out the anger of mine again
here goes

hey, fucked up so-called friends of mine! you know that i’m very fucked up with you three, which i name you three the SKL brothers
why the fuck did you three even wanna beat me?
because i wrote at BLOG about you all and that’s the reason why?
well let me tell you something
you three sucks to the core cause you all can’t even think!
look at the mirror and reflect on yourselves!
oh wait let me remind you back
last 3 years, 2005, hari raya time
you two + a couple of your friends sabotaged me and i ended up going home real cold and you think thats fun?!
fuck you, i still can remember every single thing
you make my eyes painful with those oilment that you poured, those powders and those fucking colgate and you still think its funny is it?
fuck off!
second thing is that you always fucking pisses me off with all those fuck-ed up over the limit jokes about me but i’d just kept quiet.
i always think positive cause you all once helped me before
but thats enough now
third thing is that you make me ashamed in front of those public eyes when YOU fucking broke my phone strap at mrt and when i ask you to pick it up, you just fucking egoistically ignored me and when i wanted to go home
you all FORCED me to come down there
and you even locked me real tight it really hurt bitch!
fourth thing is that everytime i said i’m tired or whatever you all aways FORCED me to come down either by saying “rabak bro gini macam”
you know what?
i don’t even recognise you three as my brothers
thats why i always call you all SHINIGAMIS
oh wait, YOU THREE DIDN’T EVEN RECOGNISE ME AS REAL BROTHERS IN THE FIRST PLACE SO DON’T TALK ABOUT THAT THING.
i’m really fucking pissed off!
LIKE AS IF YOU NEVED TALKED ABOUT ME AT ALL!
ATLEAST I DARE TO PUT INSIDE MY BLOG
AND IT’S MY BLOG MY SAY BITCHES
why can’t you all just get a life and go and die please?
cause i really hope so
oh and that time THAT FUCKING GUY BROKE MY FAVOURITE NECKLACE AND DIDN’T EVEN SAID SORRY AND I’M THE ONE WHO NEEDED TO REPAIR MY OWNSELF
OH AND YOU ALWAYS SAID I’M ATTITUDE SO WHAT?
ADE SUSAH KAN MAK BAPAK KORANG?
IF YOU HATE ME THEN JUST FUCK OFF!
I DON’T EVEN CARE !
seriously!
i didn’t even bother your life not even once after i pulled myself out so why did you all even bother to stalk my blog?
NO LIFE IS IT?
HEY BITCHES!
NO LIFE?
GET A LIFE
OH I’M SORRY CAUSE YOU ALL ARE A BUNCH OF STUPID, NO LIFE, GANGSTERS AND NO BRAINS PEOPLE.
JUST FUCKING GET OUT OF MY LIFE
I HOPE YOU ALL GET CRASH BY A BIG BIG FUCKING LORRY OR GET STRIKE BY LIGHTNING
and you all always says sorry but the next day
you all did the same thing over and over again
don’t you think that it is fucking lame!?
and you all always fucking bully me and all that
i know i’m the weakest there last time but that doesn’t mean you can control me,
you can bully me, you can have power over me!
I HAVE MY OWN LIFE
YOU DOESN’T EVEN KNOW THE REAL ME
you wanna know it so much!?
THIS IS MY REAL ME WHEN I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE WITH ALL THOSE FUCK-ED UP LIES AND HYPOCRISY OF YOU ALL
ATLEAST I HYPOCRITED JUST FOR THE SAKE OF NOT FIGHTING BUT THIS TIME IT HAS GONE TOO FAR
TOO MUCH!
YOU GET IT?
TOO MUCH!
just fuck-off, labvee, shahrizal and khalis!
just.. don’t fucking bother me anymore
and this time, this year
i swear i won’t ever find you three again
let me get it straight to your face
GET IT YOU FUCKING SHIT “FRIENDS” OF MINE.
OH AND YOU TOO FIDA, the girlfriend of shahrizal
i had enough of your hypocrisy too!
and i still remember what you did!
I STILL OWE YOU A ONE BIG TIGHT SLAP THAT YOU GAVE ME LAST 3 YEARS.
I TOLD YOU, I WILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING.
oh and i still remember too what labvee said last time
“if i got any mistakes just tell me”
but now you have already changed too much ever since you have mix with those fuck-ed up no life gangsters!
get it?
you always criticised them and all but atlast what happen!?
you all mix with them and become one of them too
SO FUCKING IRONIC MAN YOU ALL
DAMN I JUST REALISED THAT YOU ALL SUCKS TO THE CORE. FUCKING IRONIC PEOPLE.
eh shahrizal, labvee and khalis
you all still are fuck-ed up right!?
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ALL EVEN CARE ABOUT ME YOU FUCKING STALKERS
JUST BECAUSE I WRITE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU THREE, YOU THREE ARE FUCKED UP AND WANTED TO BEAT ME!?
hey LET ME SAY ONE THING TO YOU ALL
FUCK YOU, THINK ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU’VE DID TO ME
IT’S FUCK-ED UP AND IRONIC
MOTHER FUCKERS!
IT’S ALREADY PROVEN THAT YOU ALL ARE THE ONES THAT NEED SOME ATTITUDE CHANGE
GANGSTERS HAH NOW?
I WILL SEE HOW LONG WILL YOU ALL SURVIVE IN YOUR FUCKED UP GANGSTER LIFE
JUST GO AND DIE!

sorry, i really cannot take this anymore
i need to vent my anger
*ARGH!*
*punches the wall*
grr..